Monday, November 25, 2013

39 weeks pregnant with my baby boy

How far along?  39 weeks!  I secretly hope he stays in until at least Sunday because I really want a December baby 😂 I just had my 39 week check up, he's healthy and very comfy in there. He weighs a little over 7 lbs. To my surprise I'm 1-2 cm dilated. 
Total weight gain? I've gained about 27lbs total. Not bad I guess. 

Maternity clothes: I mostly wear leggings or sweats haha. I have not invested in a maternity winter coat. I kinda regret it now, it's getting really cold when I walk Diego. But not much longer and I can button my coat again. 

Stretch marks: Yeah...those fockers popped up at 38 weeks on the dot 😭 no lie, I've been really upset about them but honestly nobody but me can even tell! They're around my belly button, some on my side but they came in already skin colored and not like I would usually imagine stretch marks. You can't even see them on pictures. I've decided to stop obsessing over them. 

 They kinda look like blood vessels above what used to be my belly button LOL half as bad as I made it out to be...
For the record: I've been using following stuff since I was 6 weeks pregnant: vitamin e oil, palmers stretch mark cream, mama bee belly butter, cocoa butter, coconut butter, massage oil with olive oil, all kind of scrubs! Before people blame the genes: neither my mom nor my sister have stretch marks. So I could have my dad's genes LOL 
I think I've gained a normal amount of weight. But I'm all belly so that's probably why :-) oh well. 
Sleep: hard time falling asleep

Best moment this week: Making it to 39 weeks. Somehow everyone thought I'd have him early ha!
Miss anything? My husband during the week when he's gone. He will be here for 5 days straight starting Wednesday. That would be perfect timing for my son to make an appearance. 

Movement: he still moves a lot. Not as much as before but yep he's still stretching. :-)

Food cravings: nope, didn't have any crazy cravings this entire pregnancy. 

Anything making you queasy or sick? Not anymore! I dealt with MS until I was about 32-34 weeks. Glad it's gone lol

Gender:  BOY!

Labour signs: not a single one. I can't even tell of I'm having BH or not. I've never felt them besides my belly getting hard. 

heart burn is my worst symptom so far. 
Hands and feet are a bit swollen.
Pressure down below especially when laying down and trying to move. 
Other than that: feeling great.  

Belly button in or out? Completely flat. Lol

Wedding rings on or off? They've been off for a while 😭 miss them 

Happy or moody most of the time: Content. 

Looking forward to: meeting my baby!!! We've waited for so long 😁

Xoxo, Carla

Saturday, November 23, 2013

Essence Happy Holidays LE - Let it snow

Well, 39 weeks pregant over here :-) No signs of giving birth anytime soon. I catch myself looking at nail polish again. I ordered one of the new OPI from the Mariah Carey collection. (I have to order mostly online because nail polish is so expensive over here! And the selection on the army base is limited)
Last week the new Essence holiday collection caught my eye at DM.
I only bought one.  The snowflake topper.

The white glitter really caught me eye. 
Here it is over Sally Hansen pacific blue 

And again over black, with a matte top coat.

It's pretty but the white glitter pieces are a pain in the butt. They are almost impossible to fish out! Excuse my sausage fingers...pregnancy haha. 
Below is the entire collection:
Of course my local DM was almost out of everything already :-/
Makes me miss the states and stores like rite aid and walgreens. I'm dying to buy some of the new sinful colors :-(

Have a nice weekend everyone! 

Wednesday, November 20, 2013

Nail spam!

Since I got pregnant I have really neglected my nail polish obsession.
Morning sickness was horrible, then we moved and all of my nail polish had to be packed up and shipped across the ocean. Now that I got my nail polish back I am ready to pop haha.
Therefore, I thought I'd share my favorites here. Enjoy the flood :)

Hit Polish "Irisation" over a grey from essence (can't remember the name)

Lush Lacquer "Bubble yummy" gorg!!!

Sally Hansen "Pacific Blue" topped with an OPI Glitter

OPI "Metallic for life"

Lush Lacquer "Party Rockin" over a navy blue by Julep

Sephora by OPI "Iris I was thinner" topped with hit polish (can't remember the name)

Revlon "Blue Mosaic"

Hit Polish "Irisation" over black

Hit polish "Peacock plumage" over OPI Russian Navy, mattified

Sally Hansen "Coral Reef" topped with Hit Polish "Light Show"

Finger Paint "Watermelon" China Glaze "It's a trapeze"

I have no idea anymore LOL

OPI "Stay the night" 
OPI "The impossible"

OPI "Stay the night"

Hit polish "Turquoise delight"

Hit Polish "Underwater adventure"

Hit Polish "Instant crush"

Sinful Colors (don't remember the name )

Don't remember the blue, but the glitter is Island Girl

Essie "Shine of times" over white

Essie "Shine of times" over black

Essie "Shine of times" over black

Sally Hansen "Grey cement" Essence "Purplicious"

For the indie polishes you can check out their etsy stores: Hit Polish and Lush Lacquer ( who now goes by PolishMeSilly)



Tuesday, November 19, 2013

Christmas came early.

Today we've decided to decorate. Not my house, but my sisters/parents. Since I'm having the baby in my home town and not where we actually live I saw no point in decorating our house since we won't even be there during the holidays. I've actually stayed at my parents house since about 4 weeks because it's closer to the hospital. 
Anyway, we've decorated today. I gave my sister all my ornaments since I won't be using any. 
She really wanted a white Christmas tree. I'm more a fan of real trees :-) I love the smell. But I think it turned out really well despite the tree being artificial.  The colors go very well with the white tree. So frosty :-)

Diego modeling, he looks so stoked. 

Christmas isn't for a while but since my due date is approaching I might as well get things done now. 
On top of that I've been feeling down and depressed all day today. Could be because something came up that may ruin out Christmas plans, could be because at 39 weeks pregnant I'm getting a tiny bit impatient now, the anticipation is killing me. I wish I knew when labor starts for me. 
I feel hideous and huge :-/ I think my belly doesn't want to stretch anymore. I'm getting stretch marks but you can't actually see them because for some reason they already faded and are pretty much the color of my skin. 
Then again, I've never over analyzed my body as much as I did during pregnancy. Could they've always been there? Maybe?!? I'm so looking forward to finally meet my son, not so looking forward to see my post pregnancy belly :-/ 

So, I'm just not feeling good today. Pregnancy hormones are at a peak and tums are my best friends!!! :-D

Nite, nite from me and D. 

Sunday, November 17, 2013

It's been a long time...

Hello fellow bloggers ( who ever is still following me ha) ,

It has been FOREVER since my last blog post!! April 2012 to be exact. The past year and a half has been very tumultuous. If you can remember my husband deployed to Afghanistan in March 2012. He made it back home safely in November 2012. But this deployment was very draining. I'm so glad he's home and it's over. He's been home for a year now :-) ( this is us at the army ball in February 13)

 Honestly, the main reason I stopped blogging was because I had started more invasive fertility treatments in April 2012. I had been in the care of a fertility clinic since 2010, but April 2012 was the beginning of our first IVF (yep FIRST because even something as invasive and expensive as IVF does not guarantee success)  This journey was an emotional roller coaster. Not only was I dealing with my husband being deployed but IVF was taking a toll on my mind and body. Surprisingly, I had no problem poking myself with needles and giving myself the daily dose of fertility meds. If you don't know how IVF works. Here is a short summary: after your doctor evaluates your needs, you're put on fertility medication. Hundred kinds of pills, multiple different injections a day ( belly, butt and thighs lol) and some other fun stuff. The first round of meds tells your ovaries to produce multiple follicles instead of just one. I ended up with 20 I think. The doctor monitors you daily via ultrasounds and blood work to determine when these little eggies are mature enough to be retrieved from your body. July 4th was the date of my egg retrieval surgery. I was nervous because I've never had surgery. But it was no big deal. I was in a twilight sleep while my doctor retrieved my follicles. Out of 20, 11 were mature. The doctor was happy. I was back at work the next day. Now the more stressful part comes. Immediately after retrieval the eggs are artificially inseminated in a Petri dish.  Now you have to hope that they make it and grow into embryos. By day 3 we had 5 little healthy embryos. 2 of them were put back into my uterus. Easy peasy, resume life and pretend you don't have 2 potential babies in your belly. My pregnancy test was 10 days later and my nurses advised against testing at home. I listened but I was a mess. A few days before my pregnancy test I somehow knew in my heart I wasn't pregnant. July 14th came (my 27th birthday), the nurse took my blood and I went back to work. I had to wait about 5 hours for their call with my results. I hated getting that call at work, She said she was sorry and I was not pregnant. Our IVF didn't work. I was numb and locked myself in our employee bathroom and cried for a while. Couldn't even call my husband because he was in Afghanistan. I was alone....
I was young, in perfect health, we made great embryos and our success rate was 65%. Yet it didn't work. 
Fast forward to November 2012. When my husband came back we decided to try again with our 3 remaining embryos ( out of 5 we used 2 for Our first IVF and the remaining 3 were frozen). 
This was a far easier and less invasive process. Plus my husband was here to help me with my shots! Turns out he's a pro and my injections didn't hurt at all. Once my body was ready my clinic thawed out those frozen embryos. Only 2 survived the process unfortunately. But they looked strong and healthy, were transferred back into my uterus and I was to come back 10 days later for a pregnancy test. I did not last 10 days this time. I bought pregnancy tests despite my husband being against it! I tested on day 5: negative! But it was still early. Tested on day 6 and there was the faintest second line! OMG something was happening. Day 7 line got a bit darker. Day 8 was the last time I tested because the line was still faint. I was worried. Day 10 came and I went to my clinic with a heavy heart. She took my blood and they called me rather quick this time. I was at work again. The blood test picked up a pregnancy but it looks like it will not make it. So I was a little pregnant?!? Chemical pregnancy is a very early miscarriage. She told me to continue my meds and we will retest in 2 days. 2 days later my blood levels were even lower, my body just didn't want to keep this pregnancy! I was crushed!! My husband and I took 2 vacations. We decided that 2013 was our year, no stress, just us and whatever happens happens!! 
We had a long talk and decided we would try for one more IVF in May 2013. I was still stressed out and started acupuncture in January 2013. I've heard good things about acupuncture and fertility so why not :-D it felt great!! I looked forward to every appointment. I ordered and paid for all my fertility meds and we were waiting to start around April. The end of March came and no sign of my period. So odd, but I assumed it was another trick my body played with me. My period was over a week late. What the heck, On April 1st my husband and I went to the dollar store to buy a cheapie pregnancy test ( no way I'd pay a fortune for a pregnancy test just to be disappointed). My theory was, testing will trigger my period. I tested that afternoon, no expectations AT ALL. I didn't even have time to walk out of the bathroom when 2 clearly visible lines popped out within a few seconds. I've never been this shocked in my life. I didn't even find words to say to my husband. I just cried and said: "holy shit it says I'm pregnant!!" I was shaking and gasping for air. It was so surreal! A day later my clinic confirmed that I was indeed super pregnant. I was 5 weeks along :-) 
Fast forward to today. I'm 38 weeks pregnant with a baby boy. He could be here any day, we couldn't be more excited. My collage below is missing my 9 months photo :-) but you get the idea!
My little nugget at 37 weeks :-) he's a cutie already. I'm so anxious. I feel great and have NO clue when I will go into labor. I wish I knew!!!
I hope my story gives other people hope. When I least expected it it happened for us. After all that heartache we will finally bring home our baby any day now.
Promise I'll continue blogging.
Oh yeah, this guy is still around too:
Xoxo, Carla!